I'll Back Off So You Can Live - G. Na

I’ll back off so you can live
Say it directly, looking at me
Say it looking into my eyes
Did you just say you wanted to break up?
Did you want to end it with me?
(I Know) You probably got a lady
(I Know) You probably got sick of me
Even though the tears are rushing to me
I’ll back off so you can live
That is all I can say
I’ll forget you so you can live better
So that you’ll be happy without me
The love that you tossed away, you can take it
Don’t even leave a trace behind and take it all
Don’t even say you’re sorry
Don’t worry about me
Your lips that told me tha you were going to leave
Why does it give me a reason to be angry today?
I need to stop you, the words don’t go out
And you are already moving far apart
(I know) You will forget me
(I know) I will really hate you
Even though you know everything
You! The reason I lived
You! Were all I wanted
You! It was me who only looked at you
Why? Why are you leaving?
Why? Why are you tossing me away?
If you were going to be like this
Why did you love me in the first place?
Do you happen to remember that day?
That day when we first met
I still remember it
The promise you made to me
That you will only care for me
That you will only protect me
That you will only love me
I believed your lies, I believed it
Did you really love me?
I’ll forget you so you can live better
Goodbye

24th March 2011 6.09pm
I'm listening to this song again and again.
I so need someone to hug now.
Everything about here isn't related to this song at all.
But this song really could make ones cry.
Feel like i'm just a dolly to them.
They're all just fooling around rite?
I don't know what gets into me today.
I'm in a freaking bad mood today.
Everyone comes and congrats me and i don't feel happy at all.
I don't know why is this happening on me.
But still i'm smiling to them and thanks them and all that.
I can't hold myself any longer.
I don't wanna give anyone a fake smile.
For what decision i've make, and all of it turns out to be something seems so wrong.
Everyone is telling me to think all over again.
To make a new decision again.
What am i suppose to do?
Shall i leave here, leave ipoh, leave my family, relatives, friends? and everyone.
This is a painful decision.
And even someone said that its just a waste for i'm going to a college like that.
Those wording is a pain in my heart.
Its an ache that you can't feel it like tears falling from your heart but not your eyes.