I'm so damn freaking hate it.
I hate it this way.
The first one is,
Why are you putting your temper on me?
I don't know what have i done wrong.
I tried to be good to you all the time.
All i've done is for your own good.
But you're always letting out your bad temper.
And i really don't know what's happening sometimes.
What am i to you?
Why are you doing this to me?
The second one,
I hate this more.
I've got no idea about it anymore.
This gone deeper and deeper.
Everything's changed.
Its a fake relation between us i think.
This is so not real.
I wouldn't know what will happen next.
And i don't know how i'm gonna face it.
Who can i tell all this to?
No one.
I could only tell my heart.
This is so suffering for me.
The third one,
I wasn't happy and enjoyable, lively and cheerful like last time.
Idk why i'm this way.
I hate this so much.
Everything seems so wrong.
And i couldn't fix it.
I don't know how to.
But just let it be.
I watched all this happening.
My heart aches so badly.
I felt so bad for myself.
I couldn't sleep well every night.
And sometimes even having serious insomnia.
Everything i've done was all useless.
It meant nothing to all of em'.
They couldn't understand it at all.
My heart seems like being pressed so hardly.
I could barely breathe when i think of all this.
And i don't even know why.
Tell me why.
I tried to be so strong in front of everyone and even my family now.
I pretend to be so tough nowadays.
I started to keep everything in myself.
Not telling it out to anyone.
Not even someone.
What to do?
NOTHING.